~Messed Up!..~

Very Messed Up now.. My mind is messed up.. My heart is messed up.. My emotion is messed up.. Even now, my feeling is also messed up!! I've been asking myself repeatedly the same questions for I-dunno-how-many times.. I still find out that it is very much unbelievable for myself.. I feel very surprised and even shocked!! I'm surprised that I miss u so much.. I'm surprised that I couldn't sleep because of u.. I' m surprised that I would think of u each and every minutes.. All these are just too much for me!. I'm just so messed up!!..

~Helpless~

Do u noe how it feels to be fallen in love with someone.. I noe exactly how it feels.. N that's one of da reasons i have not let myself to fall for anyone since da last time.. Ya, it's kinda stupid to think like that.. But i cant help it..

My heart is pumping fast.. My mind is all about u.. My mood is affecting by every single thing related to u.. My thoughts are so messed up!

I've no idea wat to do.. I'm stucked.. I cant proceed.. I cant get back either.. I've no way to go.. I can onli pretend that we're good friends.. Like I don love u..

Love isn't like this.. Love is to voice out.. Love is to act out.. Love is to express out too! But in this condition, can i do so? Am I allowed to do so? I've disagreed myself.. Sometimes,thing jus doesn't go like how we want it to be.. I've to understand this theory well enough..

Just that.. It is so suprising n So shocking.. That I've really fallen in love with u..

~J~
Jason Siah
4.28pm 2nd June 2008